dear self

now that other things in life are starting to bring you back to feeling whole, can you stop eating for two? i know feeding your stressful situations seemed comforting, but you worked so hard in january and february and loved looking at your progress--lets get that back once you move ok.

and another thing. you know how you think you're cool enough to be in contact with him and slip him the occasional text or email- then you wonder why you suddenly feel ill or have that huge know it your stomach? it's cuz he's just not good energy. so maybe you can stop doing things that don't give you that high on life feeling.

you know how you turn your phone on and there is your russian prince charming staring at you and you feel all happy and smiles automatically get planted on your face? or when you think about your new job and the exciting work you have to do day to day? or recently when you think of your new apartment and how happy its going to make you-- lets stick to those healthy things okay?

life has put you through a ringer so stop bringing more agony upon yourself. you're a smart gurl. and not only is he not that into you- he's not that much of anything...really. and you know that. so lets get on the right track and stop walking through such mud and icky stuff.

alright- gotta go...things finally are turning around and i'd like for you to see the sun this time, so lets put the self created rain cloud away. you have amazing friends all with smiles that warm you heart.

okay? so we'll see you in better light my dear. and as your therapist says, 'take gentle care'--and as your former self says, do so but also paint the town red which we know you love doing so very much!

with love,
your self,soul and heart