ah ha!

i had to take a moment to live my life instead of blogging it. sometimes you have to do that. you have to break away from documenting your ever bite of food and activity and actually fully enjoy them.

anyway tonight i need to hit the hay pretty early on so i am sharing an "ah ha" moment with you. feeling full from a very yummy dinner with the neighbors, my uncomfortable self who skipped the gym, reminded myself of the numbers on the scale and went for a short walk. it was a nice walk but i wondered what "crash" diet i could do to make my confidence boost a bit to see some smaller numbers on the scale.

instead of researching crash diets, or throwing all the food away in my house, i decided to use the "perfect diet tracker" that i purchased a year ago and put in my food for the day. and there it was! a year ago i was 2lbs lighter--and an inch larger in my waist. this still wasn't much of an "ah ha" moment--so i looked some more and noticed that my Jan. 26 2009 weigh in was 5 wonderful lbs lighter BUT my measurements weren't too far off --which meant that i need to FOCUS on those 5lbs and i might stop beating myself up--still very informative but not the ah ha moment i needed.

after i finished putting all that i ate leaving out the homemade chai (it wasn't an option)-- i saw it. the bottom of my menu page turned red and it told me i went 160 calories over my target caloric intake.

AH HA! so i am eating too much.

despite my love affair with food i think i know how to fix that. and thus operation shut your mouth starts tomorrow. its water and chewing gum each day, stealing "breaks" to get in a quick ten minute walk or sprint up the stairs.

i can do this.

i am the only motivation i need.