balance

whole foods tim has a tattoo on his ankle that is about having a balanced life. he told me that in thailand instead of saying what's up people ask if you're life is feeling balanced--i may have gotten the exact wording wrong but the general understanding is there.

i think that is really profound of the thai. its something i should probably embrace with my dear friends as i am realizing finding balance in life is not as easy as balancing on one foot.

home is always such a blessing. good people, places and food. fond memories and moments from the past and in the present. and so much more of the cheesy good lines that hallmark loves so much.

but visits home are never fully balanced. ever since getting hit by the train, it seems that i focus more on things directly connected or pretty close to home. i love spending time at home but also find that i miss out on hugging and seeing some very important people in my life, leaving with promises of a speedy return.

its always the paragraphs before the flight home, starting as early as the night before that sink me into a shallow pool of wonder. how long do i think i'll stay in DC? how many more trips home can i make without wanting to stay? and how will i ever leave all the things in DC that have made my foundation all the stronger?

for now this last paragraph is ready for sleep however i have a list of things to do and of things i forgot to do and need to attend to tomorrow.

they say you can never go home again. and i say you may never be able to return home again but i'm welcome here all the time. if only i can balance the welcome with the leaving and the visiting with the people and not feel like my tree pose is slightly leaning, almost falling.