i will never be a skinny gurl, and here's why...

....i have free food on the regular at work for lunch.
....our cook makes random yummy breakfasts/lunches and desserts available for staff
....i haven't settled into my apartment or back into my WORKOUT routine
....i keep running on empty and filling up before the breaking point with the WORST possible options.
....i enjoy beer with the boys next door.
....i just realised sans coconuts next time, i'm a good baker.
....i'm tired. sigh. so very tired.
...i date jerks and when they are gone fill the void with just as bad food options.
...i love salad but haven't been waking up early enough to make a salad for lunch which would help get the addiction back.
...i don't HATE the way i look with some extra softness. but LOVE the way i look when working out and wish that love was a bit stronger.
...i like to eat
...my workout modes are so intense they burn me out
...i seem to think a workout partner would help
...and would love if that partner was more than just for the gym
...have i said i'm tired? because i am.

but i miss the gym enough that maybe just maybe one day i'll be my own skinny gurl. not to be confused with "one who wears skinny jeans", i'll never be (nor want to be) able to fit into that trend.