a penny saved

so friends. i've come to the point in my life where my budget is such crap that in 3 weeks i may have seen less of you, or spent less time at happy hours, but will have a clean apartment and possibly new garden to show and probably have lost a couple of lbs.

its time to list the things i can and cannot do for at least a month until bills get even/paid and i have more than .75 to my name.

i can workout. i can cook. i can go for walks. i can respond to emails. i can twitter. i can FB. i can stay hydrated. i can read. i can listen. i can drink tea and coffee. i can make brownies. i can go to work. i can go to my second job. i can laugh, pray and smile. i can go to a museum. i can ride my bike (well when its not raining). i can have a picnic. i can nap at the mall. i can take pictures. i can have a beer (until i have no more in my fridge). i can drink some wine.

and the things i will be declining.

all things that cost more than...free.

this is a liberating and annoying place to be. liberating because i know i can do it and then i am proud at how little i really need to spend. annoying because of how many times i've been here and how i keep trying and trying to get my "stuff" together and then fall short.

this might be the last time i can stomach it though so...stick around for the long haul and we'll discover together.